I experienced a truly awful time here. Most of the staff are nice, but I think they\'re trained to be more concerned with pushing the longer program, which means more money, than helping the patients. The brochures and media advertising the accommodations/amenities are representative of the extended program, not the regular one. I was told there would be running trails I could use if I got too stressed, and this was false.
I had suffered a traumatically-bad, hallucinoegic trip, which was the catalyst to enter treatment, and was prescribed medication for the recovery and panic attacks that followed this experience. When I arrived at Bradford, I was told that this medication would not be allowed, but they would provide me with an alternative that was just as effective. That alternative turned out to be over-the-counter Benadryl, which had no effect. The panic attacks were more severe than anything I\'d ever experienced, and I was in a strange place with no relief in sight.
When I told one of the evening counselors that I was having a panic attack, he made it obvious that I was bothering him while he was trying to watch a football game. I\'m not one to complain about anything, usually, but I had never experienced anything like I was experiencing, and I was legitimately worried I was going insane. All I wanted was to call my parents, but I was not allowed to do so until the designated time. We were only allowed a five-minute phone call, as there were only two phones and many patients.
I simply just wanted help for my panic attacks, and I wanted to be in a familiar setting with familiar people. I really felt out of place, as well as trapped. The majority of the staff was very helpful and friendly with navigating the twelve steps, but I really think that their management puts a lot of pressure on them to prevent AMA\'s and push the extended program for financial profit. So much so, that I think this actually interferes with their effort to help rehabilitate the patients.
I also would have enjoyed other options besides the 12-step model. It wasn\'t very helpful to many of the patients I talked to. There is also a strict fraternization policy, which I understand to an extent, but it wasn\'t allowed for members of the opposite sex or those in different cabins to talk with each other, at all. As someone who feels more comfortable around the opposite sex than my own, I felt that this was disadvantageous to my recovery there. I think that there should have been more free time in the day to relax, as we were up from 5:30a to 10p, with a pretty packed schedule. Going through withdrawal nearly my entire stay, there were several times when I just wanted some time to take a nap. TV privileges are often taken away as punishment for the mistakes of one or a few roommates, and the staff is very strict about cleanliness. Most of this didn\'t really bother me, but I just wanted to mention this to anyone thinking about going here or sending a loved one here. You will have to do chores and be present at every activity. If you are sick, you have to go see a doctor and get a bed-pass for the day, and the doctor wasn\'t always at the facility.
I think that\'s about it. Overall, I can see this facility working for some. It just didn\'t work for me. Counseling and NA, as well as SMART recovery groups helped me to eventually get clean. I was able to stay clean for close to a month after leaving Bradford, but I was not willing to go back after relapsing. In a way, I\'m glad I went here because I became determined to get clean with an alternative method than have to come back here. Best wishes of success and serenity to anyone struggling with addiction.