I had to re-enter society, re learn how to live beyond survival mode, I was always on high alert. I lost the ability to function in the real world, how to talk to people, look people in the eyes, how to smile, skills to hold a job, my self esteem was zero. It incorporated daily NA meetings where I got to see and hear others who were where I was and how much they accomplished, looked human again, got their life back and their testimony on how they did it, integrated with what I was learning in groups, counseling, caring for my personal needs, and most of all Hope that If I did what I was learning in treatment and continued to learn from others who did it before me, I too could recover from the empty shell of a human being I had become.